Meditation for August 16th
It’s Okay to Not Be Okay
In our modern age of materialism and information, we have a hard time admitting we are not okay. Back when we were just animals and not making up religions and economic systems, not being okay meant death. Being okay was survival.
Well now we have science and religion, supermarkets and tapas bars, so survival is only for those people over there, but we still won’t admit we aren’t okay.
Truth is, you are not okay. You might have the things you need and have some stuff you want, you might be good looking and witty, but you still feel this missing part that you could never find. You know that some day you are going to die. You might not dwell on it, but the odds are you will suffer greatly at your death.
The odds that you will be received in a Jerusalem on the other side in the planes of the dead is slim to none, so you have to ask yourself, what was this all for?
Not dressing up in certain clothes and smoking cigarettes at the bar listening to your friends band. Not sitting on your computer trying to be right all the time. Not bashing people for who they are. Not looking down at people for not knowing any better.
This all makes being okay a real fucking chore.
So it is is okay to admit you aren’t okay. Sometimes we wake up sad, alone and broken. Sometimes we spent years fixing ourselves only to find ourselves still unfixed. We find new ways to break ourselves and we stay up all night worrying.
You’re not okay. You have no idea what you are doing. Maybe you’re doing similar things as other people in your demographic, but doesn’t that make you a mindless follower? You will always have something to work on.
Don’t be okay and be okay with that.