Meditation for November 25th, 2016
Tugboat Willy Versus The Silent Movie
There are three kinds of ways a person thinks. The first, the more popular way to think and the one we don’t care about, is just an open mouth breathing selfish organism.
The other two are Tugboat Willy and the Silent Movie.
The Tugboat Willy is the repetitive cartoon mouse whistling to a world choosing to ignore the complete darkness that haunts every person’s soul. Emotions are what the music is.
Seeing and believing the world to be a cartoon full of anthropomorphism and silly jazz and classical music makes one have a hard time feeling empathy or compassion when it would be hilarious for an anvil to fall from the sky and fall on a crying woman.
In this world of animation, everyone hears the same music and must bop and whistle to it. If you aren’t in this world you can see those that are by the way they sway to a different beat. If you aren’t in this world, the Tugboat Willy will believe you are anyway.
You walk a fine line between creative brilliance and suicidal mania.
The Silent Movie type see the world in exaggerated emotional responses. Everything is drama. Everything is the end of the world.
You can’t just be disappointed, you have to throw yourself to the ground and wail about the injustice of man.
The Silent Movie actor must squeeze meaning out of everything. Even if it is empty and meaningless, the actor will delve into dishonesty to bring up some kind of purpose for being the center of attention.
How can Fidel Castro dying help me to be seen as the most intellectual but emotionally effected person? I knew him? I was a life long communist who wanted so bad for Cuba to prove that the very system of capitalism is a fucking fraud, but then I’d have to ignore the terrible and glaring human rights violations against gays, lesbians, and other ‘unwanteds’ from the communist experiment.
If you are the Silent Movie actor then you must always be having a close up. Your eyes must always be dewy and there needs to be a halo of light around your hair.
The rest of you will not understand this meditation and will suddenly be sitting there with no thoughts but the sound of your mouth breathing.